Weight... What?

There comes a time in your life when you can't keep lying to the person in the mirror anymore. When clothes don't fit like they used to and when you realize your happy fat isn't making you very happy. You are constantly stressed out and tired and you know that the food or drinks you are drinking aren't making you feel better but worse! This is what I feel like and this is the very last straw!

It isn't a problem of laziness, although that would be a nice change, but a problem of self worth. I don't think I'm important enough to take care of my health. I am very good at taking care of work, school, home (sort of) but I don't make myself a priority enough to use the gym pass I am neglecting and to eat healthy food. Why can't there be a magic pill or something that takes me back to my high school weight? Ugh!

So I am putting it in writing that I will follow these guidelines for myself for a healthy lifestyle change because diet is a dirty word, right?

1. NO SODA
2. Work out 4 hours a week
3. Get a decent amount of sleep
4. Grocery shop for healthy foods once a week
5. On my days off make myself a priority
6. Take doggies on walks more often
7. Get rid of junk food (it's my weakness... there's a jar full of candy right next to me.. haunting me)
8. Relax

Ok my blog reading friends! I will show you that I can reach my goal of dropping 15-20 pounds by the end of the year! So I have 52 days to make a difference for myself! Wish me luck!

Balance so far...

This year for me was supposed to be about balance. Mainly incorporating fitness, healthy eating (NO dieting), my church and time for myself as well as school at the same time I wanted to improve and be more productive at work. 

That's a lot for anyone to handle. It is July 21st, 2011 and I can say that I have not lost a single pound although I know I can complete a 5k within a reasonable amount of time. I still eat out and my snacks still aren't strictly carrots and celery. I wanted to be more involved with church. I have just gotten a primary calling with my sweetheart and I am starting visiting teaching but I haven't made one effort to get closer to my Father in Heaven. My work is merging in a week and I still feel clueless and unsure about my abilities to take on a whole new credit union in a matter of days. 

But I realized life isn't about being perfect at every single one of those things I have aspirations for but to be happy with what I can do. I love my life. I love the man I've married. I have learned to accept some hard choices I have made but I know it was all for the benefit of learning. It's ok to fall down as long as I pick myself right back up and keep going. 

Balance

For me this year is all about balance.

How to live without regrets. How to work hard with everything in me, take care of my house and feel satisfied. How to be healthy and active without becoming burnt out. How to eat right and to consume things that are good for me and not just good for my tastebuds. How to be financially stable and to correct some habits that keep getting me in trouble. Yes I know. I work for a financial institution and I fully admit to not having my monies in the right place at the right time for the right things. Ugh denial is a hard road to travel.

So if you don't hear much from me it's because I am learning the fine art of living a life that is full of happiness, hard work and a bunch of kicking my own ass to be on the right track for myself.

Keep ya posted blogging world.