Bloggin' Again

I took some time off this blog to focus on my pregnancy and to try to keep up my pregnancy blog but I didn't do as much writing as I would have liked. I wish I could combine both the blogs but don't know how so if any of you out there know how to PLEASE tell me. Now that my life is getting into a routing with my new little baby boy I feel like I have a chance to slow down and appreciate what's going on. I also want to save these memories as they happen. My brain hasn't been the same since becoming pregnant. I have now become even more of a (korean) blonde as my dad would say.

Everyday is a blessing. A gift that I don't know how I managed to come by and don't know how I deserve to be so happy. I love taking care of my baby. Ethan is my heart. He is a part of me and his daddy that I just want to hold in my arms forever and never let him go. No school. No dating. No driving. No dangerous sports. EVER!!!

But seriously let's be real. I have to let him go little bits at a time eventually. Right now I get to enjoy him and be his everything. I love being a mommy. I love the smiles he greets me with every morning and the way know each other so well. He's my little love. I have so much gratitude for my other love. My sweet Austin has been working so hard and working so many long hours to give us enough money to get by. Thank you baby. You are the best for working so hard for us.

 I always considered myself a career woman. Work full time since I graduated high school then work my way up to management at work. I love the people I worked with. I love the lessons on finances that I learned. It is something I will take with me through out the rest of my life and something I will teach my children. Now that I get to be a stay at home mommy I can focus on being healthy. Slow myself down and enjoy things that I didn't let myself. Like cooking. I always felt so tired and not really in the mood to learn to cook different things. Pinterest has changed that and I think Austin's a fan!

Um I'll be the first to admit that I gained way too much weight with my pregnancy. Combination of things made it hard to control my hunger and cravings; thanks Cafe Rio!! :(. I was already heavier than I wanted to be to begin with but then to add baby weight on top of that is just unfair. But enough of blaming my pregnancy for my waistline haha. I have made fueling my body and working out a priority. I have been working out for almost 3 weeks and I have lost over 7 pounds. Not stellar but it's progress. I eat more protein. It's been over a week since I drank soda. I try not to eat out. Losing weight is very hard for me. I get so frustrated with the number on the scale that I just stop trying. So my focus isn't on the number it's on my daily calorie intake and working out almost everyday. I find that when I do work out I have more energy as well as a very good mood. I can take on the day and sleep better. I eat better too and drink my water. Finding out what makes my body happy also makes my mind happy. Yay for being happy.

My ultimate goal is to be healthy so I can keep up with Ethan when he's mobile and can run around. I want to be the mom who is riding bikes with him and playing sports. Not sitting on the sidelines. I refuse to miss anything in my sons life because of my health because I love him and I am learning to love myself too.