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The last time I posted I had been dealing with the emotional trauma of my body miscarrying our second pregnancy. Those were hard words to write but ultimately I believe they helped so much to my healing. After friends and family read those I had so many women tell me they went through the same thing- even multiple miscarriages! I was overwhelmed by the response and support I got. So if you reached out to me please know that you helped this girl and I can smile today because you touched my life in a difficult time.
What you all don't know is about two weeks after my miscarriage my body decided it was ready for another baby!That's right everyone I am PREGNANT!!!
Of course I am now well past the danger zone and finally able to relax knowing the likelihood of that happening again is minimal. I know other things could happen but I choose not to worry. Because stress is bad for baby and who wants that?
I wanted to record a little about what this pregnancy has been like so far:
Due Date is July 17th 2015I am 23 weeks and 2 days pregnant
I gained about 10 pounds with the miscarriage and depression (started out 175)
With this pregnancy I have gained 21 pounds so far making me 206- but I don't want to focus on the number. This is purely for comparison with my first pregnancy
The first 2 1/2 months I was so sick and tired that I couldn't even function and started feeling like my self by the end of January
All I wanted to eat was things I didn't cook- made my eating healthy hard
Three weeks ago I started cutting out things that weren't so good for me
First week in December I had a bleeding scare and thought we were miscarrying again. Turns out I pushed it too hard at the gym that morning (I was scared of how much weight I had put on already so I didn't want to get too big) went to the doctor and everything was ok
Two weeks ago I started working out again.
I want to work out 5 days a week for the rest of my pregnancy and I am hoping that will help with the baby blues after baby is here. I also want to see how it helps me recover.
Also baby is a BOY! Ethan is going to have a little brother and we are thrilled! Especially daddy. Speaking of which I don't normally show my affection for Austin publicly a lot but I am so grateful he chose me. Through this whole thing he just amazes me how supportive he has been and how much he can do to take care of our family. You have my heart forever baby.
Alright everyone I will try to keep this up and going. Please let me know what you think. I love feedback. Have a wonderful start to your week!
Love,
Jennifer
