Clean Eating Challenge Day 1

8:33pm- I WANT CHOCOLATE!!!! AND PIZZA! Everything I have eaten today has been clean and very good for me but I'm relaxing and catching up on my shows and all I want is to indulge! 

This is so bad. My brain tried to convince me that I have been good enough and now I deserve something as a reward. A chocolate reward. I read somewhere if I am craving chocolate I need protein so maybe I will have to find me something. 

My dinner was garlic vege's and they were so filling but when I eat healthier foods it seems like I get hungry faster. Hopefully the next 20 days will be easier for me. 

Night everyone! 

21 Day Clean Eating Challenge

My friend let me into her 21 Day Clean Eating Challenge and it starts tomorrow. I am really nervous that I will screw it all up with some hidden chocolate in my house but I am so excited to have something to push me in the right direction with my nutrition. It has taken me so long to understand what my body actually needs daily was not what I was feeding it. I thought "Hey, pizza and hamburgers have all the food groups so it's healthy, right?"

NO FRIGGIN' WAY!!!!!!!

After a year of no Pepsi I think it's time to take my body to the next level. I feel so much better without all that sugar clouding my mind and body but I am ready to become lean. Not just lose weight here and there but actually becoming the most fit and healthy I have ever been. 

I have gotten my meal plan ready for the next 7 days so posting my beginning stats before.

Weight: 184

Waist: 33"

Hips: 42"

Chest: 37"

Left Arm: 12 1/2"

Right Arm: 12 1/2"

Left Thigh: 24"

Right Thigh: 25"

Everyone is always self conscience about their before photo but this is for reference back to- no judging.

Checking In

Hey all,

Just checking in to let you know that I have sinned. Against good food eating principles. And I am not ashamed. It is something I will be better at because let's face it I can't take this sluggish, ornery, gross and bloated feeling I get after eating crap food. Cuz it makes you... you know.

The 3 pounds I lost last week have almost completely come back after all my hard work and discipline. The point of this post is to admit I am human. I let my old habits come back and my problem is I don't prepare enough. I always run late, let things go that I should be on top of and when it's crunch time I don't make the extra effort it takes to really make sure I am taking great care of myself.

I don't EVER want to put on this show that I am perfect or that I know what I am doing. I don't. I have started a journey with baby steps and I will share what has worked for me. I have been struggling the past few months with maintaining my portion sizes. I haven't cut out sugar (not the chocolate) or fried food or work out everyday. It's something that I am always working on.

This helps me be accountable. I know there isn't much of you out there that care what I go through but putting this out there and if there is one person who feels a connection with what I do and who I am then I LOVE it! It helps me to know I can help people when I am also learning to love myself through the physical and very emotional struggle of doing what's best for me.

I am a big advocate of doing what makes you happy and friend if I can come as far as I have with out giving up then SO CAN YOU!!!!


Just felt like I needed to post this. Please I love feedback so let me know if you like what I am doing.

New Year = New Motivation (Fitness)

I don't like New Years Resolutions. I don't like the idea of making a change just because of the time of year. Knowing myself I would never stick to anything. Now having said that January is my favorite time of year for fresh starts. That sits so much better with me.

A fresh start.

Ah so refreshing.

One year ago this month I had it. I was sick of feeling huge and gross and self conscience and tired and unattractive and chunky and just sick of feeling sick. Few months after Ethan's delivery (which was SO HARD- I still have to write about that one) and I was still in my mommy depression fog. I was leaning on my crutch (Pepsi and lots of sugar) more than I wanted and I just wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out.

Ethan is the best thing to have EVER happen to me and also the hardest thing to ever happen to me. Nobody tells you how difficult it is after you have a baby for the first time. I'm not sure how it is after that because I only have my little angel.

Anyway nothing was helping me feel better except working out. I would do a few YouTube videos and half a P90X workout a few times a week. After my strength got better I could do more in a workout. At the beginning of last year I stopped drinking soda all together. Switched my white bread for wheat. Ate turkey instead of beef. Made sure I got a lot of water in and eventually I felt better.

I am where I am right not because of that. I haven't done anything crazy healthy yet but that is what brings me to now. I got comfortable. I stopped making improvements and my weight loss flat lined. You can't stop. It is a lifestyle change not a diet that lasts 2 weeks or 30 days. You need to keep doing what you can to be healthy.

After our move I joined the rec center. It has been almost 3 weeks and I go 5 days a week and I am getting educated about what is good for my body. What can it do? What can I accomplish? My goal for January was to go work out 5 days a week and I am feeling so so great now.

The new year isn't a time for me to make resolutions because those fail. I am making a fresh start and finding new motivation to keep going. To be even better this year than last year. This year I will be in the best shape of my life because I know I can.

Mommy Fabulous Make Up

Smokey Neutral and Light HAC

This is the perfect easy neutral, smokey, everyday makeup I used all the time. I still feel put together without going overboard. Perfect to pair with soft and natural hair. 

Products used: 

Liquid Foundation- Makeup Forever HD color 127

Set with- Bare Minerals Original powder in Fairly Medium 

Eye Shadow Base by StillGlamorus Cosmetics 

Shape and fill in brows with NYX dark brown duo

Eye shadow as follows-

Highlight and inner corners in Mischeivious by StillGlamorus Cosmetics

Naked3 palette Darkside on outer corner of eye blend in 2/3 way towards inner corner and Buzz to blend the two together

Victoria Secret bronzed to countour and blush to give a little color and StillGlamorus Misheivious to highlight ontop of blush, between eyebrows blend upwards, down center of nose, on top of upper lip and on chin in middle very lightly

Light coat of Clinique lipgloss on lips and top with Flower Cosmetics nude lipstick