New Year = New Motivation (Fitness)

I don't like New Years Resolutions. I don't like the idea of making a change just because of the time of year. Knowing myself I would never stick to anything. Now having said that January is my favorite time of year for fresh starts. That sits so much better with me.

A fresh start.

Ah so refreshing.

One year ago this month I had it. I was sick of feeling huge and gross and self conscience and tired and unattractive and chunky and just sick of feeling sick. Few months after Ethan's delivery (which was SO HARD- I still have to write about that one) and I was still in my mommy depression fog. I was leaning on my crutch (Pepsi and lots of sugar) more than I wanted and I just wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out.

Ethan is the best thing to have EVER happen to me and also the hardest thing to ever happen to me. Nobody tells you how difficult it is after you have a baby for the first time. I'm not sure how it is after that because I only have my little angel.

Anyway nothing was helping me feel better except working out. I would do a few YouTube videos and half a P90X workout a few times a week. After my strength got better I could do more in a workout. At the beginning of last year I stopped drinking soda all together. Switched my white bread for wheat. Ate turkey instead of beef. Made sure I got a lot of water in and eventually I felt better.

I am where I am right not because of that. I haven't done anything crazy healthy yet but that is what brings me to now. I got comfortable. I stopped making improvements and my weight loss flat lined. You can't stop. It is a lifestyle change not a diet that lasts 2 weeks or 30 days. You need to keep doing what you can to be healthy.

After our move I joined the rec center. It has been almost 3 weeks and I go 5 days a week and I am getting educated about what is good for my body. What can it do? What can I accomplish? My goal for January was to go work out 5 days a week and I am feeling so so great now.

The new year isn't a time for me to make resolutions because those fail. I am making a fresh start and finding new motivation to keep going. To be even better this year than last year. This year I will be in the best shape of my life because I know I can.